Health, as defined by Webster’s: a : the condition of being sound in body, mind, or spirit; especially : freedom from physical disease or pain.
Health, as defined by Regan’s dictionary: a : the condition of actually waking up each morning, especially: during moments of obesity, negativity, and sarcoidosis.
The next Life Wheel spoke I want to focus on is my health. I have blogged a lot about my health, concerns, and more. I feel I really need to write it down, list wise, and focus on it; if not only to blog but to write it on Post Its and put them all over the house, work, car, friend’s foreheads, back of son’s head (since that’s all I see of him anymore), and my dog’s tail. Obsessed much, nah…just determined to get back on track with accepting “me”.
- I will be more aware of my body and the signals it is giving me. I will focus on the needs it is requiring of me.
- I will focus on getting a healthier weight, no matter what “number” it is. This will not only help my weight, but eventually my diabetes.
- I will focus on changing my environment enough so that my sarcoidosis has less flare ups. I will make sure the dog hair is vacuumed often, things are disinfected, and cleaning so that dust is not a factor.
I am so unconnected to my body and the signals she gives me. If my neck hurts, I complain about it and move on. If my head hurts, I feed it Tylenol. If my back aches, I deal with it. If my stomach hurts, I don’t pay attention to what I’ve eaten, and what may have caused it. As a result, I am extremely obese, I have diabetes, frequent colds / flu, and a generalized “discomfort” about me. I really need to stop the moment a headache hits me, and focus on what brought me here. “Am I thirsty?” “Am I hungry?” “Is there a scent in the area that I am allergic too?” I need to learn to be fully within me, and connected to each muscle, sinew, fiber and cell of my being.
If I focus on ‘losing weight’ I will sabotage myself. Instead, focus on healthier choices so that natural weight loss may happen. I will focus on being happy with wherever my body decides it’s comfortable at. I will stop comparing myself to others, worrying about weight judgment, and learn to love the skin I’ve been gifted from God. Prior to being diagnosed with Sarcoidosis I was on a big weight loss run. I was put on steroids for the Sarcoid, and gained it back plus some. I was doing really good with my eating habits, and the weight was just coming off. I will get back to that, and make it a habit!
I have become really lazy, and almost tolerant of a messy house. I know without a doubt that our dog hair, dust and old house that sprouts black mold near the windows, is NOT helping my medical issues. I also need to stop blaming the others in the house for it consistently being messy. Yes, they are a huge contributing factor.. frankly “boys” just do not see a mess like a female does. However, I am capable of cleaning myself. It just was easier when it was only my son and I. I need to make the effort more into taking care of my surroundings, and less at pointing it out to others. In the end, my lungs and body will be thankful.