I’ve never really advocated on for myself, put out there what I really want. In the end, I always catered to whomever I was with, friends, family and lovers alike. I have always tried not to rock the boat, because of fear for myself, fear of failure, fear of being unwanted or not worthy enough.
Well, forget that. I’m coming to, coming through and coming to realize that those were just fantasies fed to me by a mentally unstable mother. I am worthy. I do not have to settle. I don’t care if it takes me the rest of my life to firmly grasp that idea, I will continue to repeat it to myself over and over again.